The soul of a beast

Let me show what all the howlin' is for

If you're bored then you're boring

I've put a lot of things on hold and kinda pushed life at home aside for sleep and work. I've stopped cleaning my room, I can never seem to keep it clean for longer than a few days, anymore, that comes along with having siblings in and out and never picking up after themselves.

I regret selling my bike and my Mamiya 7. I wouldn't have much time to play with them, now, but I guess I will never stop holding on to sentimental thoughts.

Today's Agenda
-Coffee
-Work
-Clean
-Maix
-Register
-Sleep

Get your life in order

Unsung

I don't know what I expect when I pour every little bit of myself into the things I do for others. Clients, bosses, loved ones. Even when I try, I just can't help myself, I work with everyone else's feelings in mind. But I know it's not the same for everyone else.

People treat me like shit, my job is sucking me dry, and my family is the definition of suck. I guess that's why I became an alcoholic in the first place, and why I've thought about offing myself so many times. But I'm stronger than that now, all I'm saying is that this is exactly how I felt all those years ago.

History repeats

To live is to suffer, and to survive is to find meaning in suffering.

Creator

Renew the resilience in my heart and help me make sense of the chaos. Grant me the strength for my meager soul to persevere.